Post by fAB on Jan 1, 2006 20:41:53 GMT -5
Everyone, welcome to 2006! It's the perfect time to take a look at the year gone by and the year ahead. 2005 was probably the best year of my life, and that's saying something. Still, there was a lot wrong with it... I not only lost my best friend, Feldinaut, but I hurt her as well, and in doing so hurt myself, this place, and everyone here who was close to her. Can everyone say, "loser"? Fortunately the voice in my head that speaks up every time I laugh or smile, telling me I have no right to be happy, is finally quieting down. I'm sure I'll regret my falling out with Feldinaut every day for the rest of my life, but even so I must move on. I can't right the wrong where she's concerned, but I do want to make amends wherever possible. The rest of you, so many of whom were also left with an empty feeling inside when Feldi departed, I owe you all.
I came very, very close to closing Legends Station down entirely, as in removing it from the web--something I promised myself in the beginning that I would NEVER do. However, despite the fact that my enthusiasm has vanished and this place only serves to reopen the scar, this is also my chance to try and make it up to you all. I can't bring Feldinaut back, but I can minimize the damage to the community by keeping the site going, and hopefully make up for my mistakes in some small way by fulfilling the promise to bring Legends Station back better than ever. With that in mind, I've tried to be more active around here, and to have a healthy attitude about it all. Slowly but surely I'm acquiring a new batch of recent memories that are pushing back the old ones and allowing me to find joy in this place once again.
Let me give thanks to those in particular who helped me out during Legends Station's darkest hours:
Dashe, thanks for being here when I felt I simply couldn't be.
SuperDanny, thanks for constantly reminding me of the awesome glory of the Legends series.
Fire Griffin, thanks for reminding me that there were still people who cared and thus, many things worth coming back to.
Feldinaut, thanks for opening my eyes to the way things really were, which hurt like hell but showed me what I had to do to set things as right as they can possibly be.
Now let's look ahead to 2006, shall we? I've been giving a lot of thought to all this, and one thing's for sure--I want to give Legends Station a new sense of direction, in which I hope all of you will feel more like this is your site, not just mine. It's a new year, let's build a new Station! Both the site and the forums need to rise up from the ashes. Please visit the following threads to help shape the future of these great places.
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I came very, very close to closing Legends Station down entirely, as in removing it from the web--something I promised myself in the beginning that I would NEVER do. However, despite the fact that my enthusiasm has vanished and this place only serves to reopen the scar, this is also my chance to try and make it up to you all. I can't bring Feldinaut back, but I can minimize the damage to the community by keeping the site going, and hopefully make up for my mistakes in some small way by fulfilling the promise to bring Legends Station back better than ever. With that in mind, I've tried to be more active around here, and to have a healthy attitude about it all. Slowly but surely I'm acquiring a new batch of recent memories that are pushing back the old ones and allowing me to find joy in this place once again.
Let me give thanks to those in particular who helped me out during Legends Station's darkest hours:
Dashe, thanks for being here when I felt I simply couldn't be.
SuperDanny, thanks for constantly reminding me of the awesome glory of the Legends series.
Fire Griffin, thanks for reminding me that there were still people who cared and thus, many things worth coming back to.
Feldinaut, thanks for opening my eyes to the way things really were, which hurt like hell but showed me what I had to do to set things as right as they can possibly be.
Now let's look ahead to 2006, shall we? I've been giving a lot of thought to all this, and one thing's for sure--I want to give Legends Station a new sense of direction, in which I hope all of you will feel more like this is your site, not just mine. It's a new year, let's build a new Station! Both the site and the forums need to rise up from the ashes. Please visit the following threads to help shape the future of these great places.
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~Personal Note to a Lost Friend~
I'm going to keep my promise and stay out of your life, but if you should ever happen to come across this post, I'd like to thank you again for your final e-mail. It took a few days for the full impact of it to really sink in, but when it did a lot of things you'd said prior to that e-mail suddenly had new meaning that I was too stupid to see before. I finally got a full grasp on the situation and was able to see when, how, and most importantly why things went so terribly wrong. I'm not at all what you seem to think I've become, but you're far beyond the point of caring anymore. However, please know that I would have rather never met you if I knew things would end this way for you. It never even occured to me that things could end this way until you said they had--if it had occured to me, things would have been very different. I apologize for calling myself your friend in my last e-mail, I had no right to do so.
I'm going to keep my promise and stay out of your life, but if you should ever happen to come across this post, I'd like to thank you again for your final e-mail. It took a few days for the full impact of it to really sink in, but when it did a lot of things you'd said prior to that e-mail suddenly had new meaning that I was too stupid to see before. I finally got a full grasp on the situation and was able to see when, how, and most importantly why things went so terribly wrong. I'm not at all what you seem to think I've become, but you're far beyond the point of caring anymore. However, please know that I would have rather never met you if I knew things would end this way for you. It never even occured to me that things could end this way until you said they had--if it had occured to me, things would have been very different. I apologize for calling myself your friend in my last e-mail, I had no right to do so.